Showing posts with label past. Show all posts
Showing posts with label past. Show all posts

Sunday, July 15, 2012

the spaces between

as we scroll down the screen there are spaces between the links that are there when i feel something is missing, when i feel i've done more writing outside of my blogs that is not copied and pasted in my blogs or recorded for posterity or memory anywhere... stuff i might write offline, on paper... or stuff i might write on websites as comments or articles that i simply do not copy for my files or blogs (usually because i am wandering and focused on the thoughts inspired wherever i am and sometimes copying and pasting interrupts those thought streams and so... some stuff is left out)... so when i feel stuff is left out of this record of writing, this table of contents, i skip a line and that blank line lets us know there was more than meets the eye here in this list of links to the writings i've left on the web... and i mention it not not only as an explanatory note, but also, for better or worse, because this reminds me of one of the deepest truths forming the core of my personal philosophy and perspective in this life...

if you do not understand my silence
you will not understand my words

Friday, April 6, 2012

random pauses (from RealTime)

while this blog is mostly a chronological record of most everything i upload to the web with links, this entry is not that... it seems that once a month or so i have something more to say (that doesn't particularly go in the other blog about this blogging life for one reason or another) and this entry is the record of an impromptu journey through the last daily babbling blog i was keeping (that has slowed to an occasional entry due to lack of babbling time) and there may be some profound meaning to the entries selected from that impromptu journey but until and unless i find time to figure that out it will be mostly a random impromptu journey through the last babbling blog which was called RealTime, hence the title, random pauses (from RealTime)... so now that you know whatever it is this may convey, enjoy :)

random pauses II

part two of something, i think - in RealTime - Yes
once again, amazed - in RealTime
so i look at the blogger dashboard that - in RealTime
the excitement of finding followers - in RealTime
this will be brief - in RealTime
what it is all about, at least mostly - in RealTime
random bits - in RealTime
you say it's my brithday? - in RealTime
you can't always get what you want - in RealTime
time passes - in RealTime
of brilliance or babble - in RealTime
dire apathy - in RealTime
through the nights... - we have only just begun... - Yes
skeleton of an entry - in RealTime
threads of emotion - in RealTime
you are such a cool one, you are… - in RealTime
repeat business - in RealTime
the later it gets - in RealTime
give me head - in RealTime
cuz i will not quit - in RealTime
the entry after this entry is the comment - in RealTime - blog*spot
impromptu ode to craig ferguson - in RealTime
commenting again - in RealTime
SISS - in RealTime
probably recycled babble - in RealTime
repeated? - in RealTime
speaking of sleep... - in RealTime - Yes
who's in charge, anyway? - in RealTime - Yes
br - in RealTime - Yes
political suicide - in RealTime - Yes
there are magic hours - in RealTime - Yes
------ WELCOME TO MY NIGHTMARE... UMMMM, WORLD...
another letter - in RealTime - Yes
in the future - in RealTime
calling all followers! - in RealTime
hey, i could have linked porn - in RealTime

oh, so here, this is what i think about that - in RealTime
remember candora? - in RealTime
------ WELCOME TO MY NIGHTMARE... UMMMM, WORLD...
cha cha cha - we have only just begun... - Yes
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: what?

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: evolution

emo, or something like that - in RealTime
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: the second ten ...

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: since i've been gone

people of the world… i decided that there - in RealTime
------ WELCOME TO MY NIGHTMARE... UMMMM, WORLD...
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: and what about you?

this wasn't today - in RealTime - Yes
forgotten again (titles) - in RealTime
just pay the damn rent already - we have only just begun... - Yes
artificial intelligence - in RealTime
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: 800

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: "a"(m)e=hhr(squared)

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: once upon a time on ...

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: once upon a time on ...

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: holiday message ...

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: and later in the evening

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: hard core reality or ...

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: dang, forgot a title ...

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: napped and woke ...

continuing to continue - in RealTime - Yes
and the world still... - in RealTime
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: keeping in touch in time

could it be? - in RealTime - Yes
don't feel left out - in RealTime - Yes
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: parallelauniverse

in no apparent order - we have only just begun... - Yes
freakin bloggin fool - in RealTime - Yes
thereal and so on... - we have only just begun... - Yes
first, the comments... - in RealTime
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: softball report, part two

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: lips, hips, dips, and ...

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: wishes for pj

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: babble on, jim jones

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: so much tiredness ...

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: what title?

it never fails - in RealTime - Yes
------ WELCOME TO MY NIGHTMARE... UMMMM, WORLD...
free pass - in RealTime
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: finding emo

the illusion of words - in RealTime - Yes
sleepiness abounds - in RealTime
and what is real? - in RealTime
with or without you - in RealTime
alas, alack, and giggles - in RealTime
once last time, we hope - in RealTime
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: service

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: into the new space ...

we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: but i didn't mean to ...

yeah, hundreds - in RealTime - Yes
skimming the surface - in RealTime - Yes
consistency - in RealTime - Yes
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: survival can be fun

heat exhaustion - in RealTime - Yes
------ WELCOME TO MY NIGHTMARE... UMMMM, WORLD...
sunny sunday at the parks - in RealTime - Yes
and the ch-ch-ch-changes - in RealTime - Yes
starting over (again) - in RealTime - Yes
in retrograd (1111.1) - in RealTime - Yes

Monday, December 26, 2011

the long and broken road

lots of breaks and disconnects in october and november and december
and it may be time to reconcile this once again...
i never was much good at wanting to keep track of time...

the long and broken road that leads me back to your door
is a bit of begged borrowed and stolen words that rhyme...

it's an old song you must recognize
and remember
to understand
(icywtk)

November 2011






kinda amazing
besides music
sleep dangit





wow, away






(private)






neglectful i have been
(private)
obviously, blah blah blah
(private)

(private)

yes, i know (with or without emphasis)


words written
linkages


(private)

softball weekend
gmorning
resting between games
more please
(private)
loving the fun
the morning after

(private)
fb comment
(private)
home again, no ring
fb comment
(private)
(private)
not enough time
sleep must
what happened





message from the future:
cuz
pauses happen
on the
the long and broken road

(in time i shall repair the links above)

Saturday, August 6, 2011

in case you want to know (icywtk)

feeling alone* (who remembers?)


(PS... if you came for the Meg and Dia mix, scroll down to the bottom of this entry...)

at this moment a poignant life change (upheaval level) is being processed and this is the public presentation of recorded moments and creative inspirations that are flowing as of this moment and the past week or so... i mean, of course there is (e)thereal, but thank goodness, there is still more...

awakish
almost home
singing songs
caught up, sorta
camping (alive in the moment)
sites i saw 198
sites i saw 199
sites i saw 200
sites i saw 201

and returning to a song of hope written when i was in the womb...

*alone

here i sit
so all alone
no one to talk to
no one to phone
i'll search to find
for there must be
a soul as lonely
looking for me


sad is heavy
vulnerability
want to be in love
looking for love
July 2011
sites i saw 197
sigh
fairy tale
wonder
blogs and other strangers
would you laugh?
the phone
stumblr at tumblr
days may blur for a while
remembering a bit

don't want to miss a thing
someday
why
love
lol lam laa

and in the end... thank goodness for the creativity (and the words and music and dreams and memories) that releases the emotions and with a little (or even lots of) creative license and imagination, turns the feelings into songs... and after years, it takes me back to the land of the mostly dead (though at least for the moment, not quite inspired to write there... perhaps later... or before, even... vulnerability is a delicate precarious balance, after all)...

but i love the creativity imagination can find in the emo :)

and finally for the moment, as i put this entry together, look what pops up on my phone... not just a person, but a place so well timed as to blow me away if i wanted it to... thank you universe (and dia)

... icywtk... sneeze... (seriously? yeah... just listen and feel :)

yeah, in case you wanted to know...

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