in case you want to know (icywtk)

feeling alone* (who remembers?)

(PS... if you came for the Meg and Dia mix, scroll down to the bottom of this entry...)

at this moment a poignant life change (upheaval level) is being processed and this is the public presentation of recorded moments and creative inspirations that are flowing as of this moment and the past week or so... i mean, of course there is (e)thereal, but thank goodness, there is still more...

awakish
almost home
singing songs
caught up, sorta
camping (alive in the moment)
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and returning to a song of hope written when i was in the womb...

*alone

here i sit
so all alone
no one to talk to
no one to phone
i'll search to find
for there must be
a soul as lonely
looking for me

sad is heavy
vulnerability
want to be in love
looking for love
July 2011
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sigh
fairy tale
wonder
blogs and other strangers
would you laugh?
the phone
stumblr at tumblr
days may blur for a while
remembering a bit

don't want to miss a thing
someday
why
love
lol lam laa

and in the end... thank goodness for the creativity (and the words and music and dreams and memories) that releases the emotions and with a little (or even lots of) creative license and imagination, turns the feelings into songs... and after years, it takes me back to the land of the mostly dead (though at least for the moment, not quite inspired to write there... perhaps later... or before, even... vulnerability is a delicate precarious balance, after all)...

but i love the creativity imagination can find in the emo :)

and finally for the moment, as i put this entry together, look what pops up on my phone... not just a person, but a place so well timed as to blow me away if i wanted it to... thank you universe (and dia)

... icywtk... sneeze... (seriously? yeah... just listen and feel :)

yeah, in case you wanted to know...

once

once there was a way...

to get back home... word.

once upon a time
i made a promise to myself
i gave a promise to myself
i said that love will never end
and i will always be a friend
and i will always stay in touch
and i still want to this much

beyond a dream
and just once
to share the understanding
to share everything

once

so i continue writing every day
no matter what the world may say
no matter how or why you're here
or even if no one is there
the words will be
the thoughts will be
eternally

beyond the printed page


here, here, and here...

here, there, and everywhere... word.

May 2011

four stars?
work and tennis
april 2011
sleep
sometimes i feel so lonely
wasn't here, was i?
not noticed
sleeped
so little time again and yeah, again
some people work for money
sleep soon, wisdom says
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overbusy
i really should have slept
listening
well ok, there is the rub
back-up
at your mercy
home late
home late again
(private)
long time
dis-connections
the irony of words
sort of catching up
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kinda bummed
slow browsing
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botts
serious sun, softball, and fun
every rug i've known
every rug i've known
quick shot from wherever
should have slept again
you missed it again
whatdisay
nowhere
nothing
circimcision, anyone?
freethinkers
love spades
before i go anywhere else
true american way
2012 report and then some
challenges and loneliness
not my day
alright then, again
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aloneness feeling stronger
relaqtive ends
relative ends (who will pay the rent?)
and in the end
commercial destruction
lonely, but (to be with me)
always hope
pathos, anyone?
beauty
another weekend gone
another week begins again
happiness is a gas gas gas
major pigging out
worst best
indispensible me
watching the bulls
da bulls and dia
should be sleeping, right
just cuz i like her
later
i wasn't feeling this way
not so much
car troubles
dream
facing choices
don't buy a car in orlando, fl
cars
(private)
wear sunscreen, and other advice
what was i thinking?
the motion picture
the 4am car alarm
car search
tennis and cleaning
softball and cooking
games and yummy
good morning sunshine :)
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jefferson would have danced too
nothing night
technology sucks
sexology
once in love
playlist
gotta buy a printer
@twitter

no new car
more to life
not that bad
pasta for all
moods, dudes
it's all about the flippancy
surely, don't call me bullsugar
squeezing it out
praise the chips and pass the ketchup
it might have been grand
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so much more than words

between the lines, beyond the titles, within the words, the dreams continue and the promise remains kept...

forget?... don't forget

March 2011

time to close
what happened to yesterday
sometimes you just jump and hope
catching down
idol season 10
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worlds apart (private)
see?
daze gone by
so not enough time
yeah, another backtrack
best middle eastern gyro
the best middle eastern gyro
equity residential
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even less time
idol 13?
soup to nuts
consumer communer
background tv
pastrami instead of softball
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she br0ught me back
wtfun
shake a leg
choices are life
it's on a lot, actually
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comment
useless warnings
sitting tough
long day fun
early games, less sleep
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what when?
weirdness
waiting for food
fell asleep, woke up
the facts of death
sucks to know
sucks to know
right off
hope
perspective
laci girl
tears
empty boxes
some in-betweens
neck still again
so much better than tv
prone
what's this?
oh yeah
playing with my new toy
inspired
phone hiccups
they just had sex
he jizz
science saved his soul
sleepy sunny sunday
asking too much
what i keep to myself (private)
cuz blogger is so important
most important human interaction
i miss the night
point
nothingness
disappointments
self-mutilation
not enough already?
wish for it
this pitcher's mindset
maybe the busiest week yet
and surprising bit of fun
bullshit or memorex (private)
for the win
so much to do around here
nothing new, just kit
march madness
into the night again
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did i pass out
dead navy guy
rinse again
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day after day
the unexamined head
mixed slices
duh duh doh doh doh
home early

February 2011

little hands at work
bring your daughter to war day
the dirty fucking hippies were right
joeyess - sorry mr. lennon
joeyess - twisted sermons
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am i missed?
time floats by
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would very much like to sleep, actually
sarah and butterfly - angel
January 2011
old becomes new again
wonderiful
utilities sucks
alrighty then, or now, even
mold and cigarettes
good morning world
still loving lemonade
making ourselves at home
here, there, wherever
aches fading
let me sleep now
working late again
time to smile
the not sleep
poor billionaires
anti corp
kicking the bloat button hard
you could have had true love
911
blew a good one
crap you believe
true love is a dream
remembering unconditional love
there was a time
all i need to find
still dreaming
words and food (and work)
higher risks
little interest of late
life is full of it
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guess we're staying
wonderful new musical toy
a break from the news
woah and a half
the whiners
kit™ are you in touch?
you can't always get what you want
four lack of more, this
should be sleeping
alone again
weirdness of the net
like magic
what?
fake lip
and i don't feel like sleeping what?
intelligent song
night
cave in
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two hours sleep
wide awake at 4am again
wise would be rest
speed traps - big business vs safety
medical marijuana
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afternoon naps
the reality of abortion
head code
facebook
body challenges
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duh duh duh
taking care of home
happy birthday old friend
the love of your life
slept through this evening
survival
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one reason
another reason
ultimately
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stumblr
anifflopullous
tumblrbot asks "what is your earliest human memory?"
ah, now i'm bot bait
twitter #135
how what why
tweet
weekend is not weak at all
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long fun day
puzzles
6
quick nap
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calling sleep
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prices coming down
being different

sleepless still

miles to go before i sleep
still have promises to keep
emotions intense and deep
miles to go before i sleep

keeping a promise

it is about keeping a promise, all the words, all the time, all the energy put into this devotion to typing a few words here and there as daily as possible, it is alll about keeping a promise...

even if no one ever knows...