really cool

what would be really cool would be a table of contents that automatically links everything i write and/or upload automatically with a pop up or even in the background and the ultimate publishing format would be a book turning pages with everything i write simply recorded and uploaded page after page... if you happen to know of such software, templates, simplicity, and genius, please let me know... until then, this is the table of contents, as if you wondered...

July 2012

june 2012
cha cha cha challenge
no really, sleep
increase sleep
clearing space
what's all this about sleep?
where it all began
now see here
nasa tv
taking time for home
ghosts calling
not the best cable service
ok, no sleep
cable services
stay on your toes(private)
bells are ringing
hair is gone
and yummy lunch
good day, how are you?
what can i say, again
still no sleep
manickakakaka
pushing limits further
rapid fire
giving in
or thereabouts
another night wakes me
finally some sleep
next stop, albuquerque
something's coming
something's coming

yeah, so what
broken up
because i obviously have head junk
ridiculous again
and then there was none
alarms and animals
just a little desperation never hurt
it's raining stones
important notice(private)
oh no, not bones
wake again


pushing the physical
ok, actually, sotra
did i mention plug
almost reality
woulda shoulda
filled this in too
ok, i confess
lovely lazy day
gonna rest today
scratching it out
losing interest
lonely, i am
sunday loneliness
who cares, what?
xbox confessions
doing list
where been
work, eat, vege
life or sleep, life
another month
cycles cycle
bed head
wish i was dreaming
sometimes i just want to get away
busy business as usual
when i am a hundred
meanwhile in life offline
filling in the gaps
foot pain
missed a day
throb thrub foot foo

and foot
is it shiny
sleep, yeah
writing more again
wah wah wah
glub glub
hanging on day by day
some sort of philosophy and today
spent the night reading
i forget when i fell asleep
must have slept
laundry visits
in my midnight confessions
laundry continues
don't be sad or sorry
waking to stare
protect the children from the children
took a push

that's it then
good nap, but
walking better
why i am alone
cleaning house
half a nap
sleepy tired
sleep 4
feeling fatigue
it can be so easy
so much to talk about
later in the day
willin'
what, not again
going to bed
i was in bed, really
buried in search
wow, that was good
ready for sleep again
day shift
did ya miss me?
wtf
farty dog and cooking
instead of sleep
with a blurred smile
comments now working(private)
this rediculousness
recording this moment
signing is sometimes just crying outloud
perhaps
somehow sleep was put off
woah
so what i was saying

it took a bit of time
and then we had food
tv, nap, tv, sleep
something changed
so while i have time(private)
breakfast and work at home
progressing
and when no message came
don't let the dishes sit unrinsed
sites i saw #390
sites i saw #391
sites i saw #392
sites i saw #393
sites i saw #394
sites i saw #395
whole lotta nuttin(private)
enough sleep
and so i didn't
sites i saw #396
sites i saw #397
sites i saw #398
sites i saw #399
sites i saw #400
sites i saw #401
sites i saw #402
sites i saw #403
sites i saw #404
almost sleep time
was sleeping good
oops he did it again
research and tv
curled up on the couch
five minutes for you(private)
time for sleep
slept about ten hours
is it really e-the-real?(private)

really?
out of the blue
a bit of deeper ooze
time may tell
head neck ear foot
two new blogs
shower shave rest
after rest
neck ear head foot
latest hello
what to do aye?
daily, this week at least(private)
made it through the week
poor jackson
change of plans
and i am still here
nite
sunshiney day
home for the night
other stuff
tweet logic
sites i saw #405
sites i saw #406
sites i saw #407
sites i saw #408
sites i saw #409
comments again(private)
morning rises

buy this, a lot
let there be light
life this
we can if we want to
food, fun, and rain
ready for sleep and then
another monday morning
double mc not (aamco)
shared weekend
facebook is sad

good evening
comments not working here either(private)

a bit wonky
monday night sci-fi
well this is whatever it was
checking off the list
good day, good night
up, down, and up again
apple vs microsoft: planned obsolescence
ok, so i hear you(private)
and so then
not much more
rush limbaugh wants to watch amateur porn
day gone
some days are stragely not there
daily elsewhere(private)
good morning, aye?
random conversation
all for love
comment
blogging as a job
imperfect pleasures
doing my job
paying attention helps
did i mention paying attention helps?
what's in the stats?

another friday morning
semi-awake, not semi-truck
distractions
yeah, so anyway
if i had a million dollars
communication(private)
olympics, old boy
half and half
loneliness

what happened to sleeing in
what to do now?
gonna pizza tonight
whatsa whatsa
who are we?
libbo likes to watch
what's going on?
so much more
the party of living: so much more
the afterblog: the party of living: so much more
almost jogging
better every day
July 2012
the long and winding road
keep on rolling
1-corinthians 13:11
matters of interpretation
olympics and stuff
working my way back to me, yeah
old neighborhood
once i had a library
another addiction
not special effects
2nd star to the right
art of self love
tree dancer
quiet evening at home
imagery
surprise day
current plans
sites i saw #410
sites i saw #411
sites i saw #412
sites i saw #413
sites i saw #414
sites i saw #415
sites i saw #416
sites i saw #417
sites i saw #418
sites i saw #419
coasting today
evening fun
love my roommate
no more caffeine
morning at noon
sites i saw #420
was visiting
laxy afternoon
yummy dinner, smiley night

and some comments tracked by disqus (that i discovered today)

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in My Dear Lost Friend · 3 years ago
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in Electrician Killed At Disney Sports Complex - Orlando News Story - WKMG Orlando · 2 years ago
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in Tea party Rep.: Only $400,000 left after ‘I feed my family’ · 11 months ago
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in YouTube Wants You to Comment Using Your Real Name · 8 days ago
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in Guy Adams: I thought the internet age had ended this kind of censorship · 2 days ago
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in Guy Adams: *Happy* news - I'm no longer verboten in Twitter-land
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in Guy Adams: *Happy* news - I'm no longer verboten in Twitter-land
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in Guy Adams: *Happy* news - I'm no longer verboten in Twitter-land
comment
in Guy Adams: *Happy* news - I'm no longer verboten in Twitter-land
comment
in Guy Adams: *Happy* news - I'm no longer verboten in Twitter-land
comment
in Guy Adams: *Happy* news - I'm no longer verboten in Twitter-land
comment
in Guy Adams: *Happy* news - I'm no longer verboten in Twitter-land
comment
in Guy Adams: *Happy* news - I'm no longer verboten in Twitter-land

the spaces between

as we scroll down the screen there are spaces between the links that are there when i feel something is missing, when i feel i've done more writing outside of my blogs that is not copied and pasted in my blogs or recorded for posterity or memory anywhere... stuff i might write offline, on paper... or stuff i might write on websites as comments or articles that i simply do not copy for my files or blogs (usually because i am wandering and focused on the thoughts inspired wherever i am and sometimes copying and pasting interrupts those thought streams and so... some stuff is left out)... so when i feel stuff is left out of this record of writing, this table of contents, i skip a line and that blank line lets us know there was more than meets the eye here in this list of links to the writings i've left on the web... and i mention it not not only as an explanatory note, but also, for better or worse, because this reminds me of one of the deepest truths forming the core of my personal philosophy and perspective in this life...

if you do not understand my silence
you will not understand my words

random pauses (from RealTime)

while this blog is mostly a chronological record of most everything i upload to the web with links, this entry is not that... it seems that once a month or so i have something more to say (that doesn't particularly go in the other blog about this blogging life for one reason or another) and this entry is the record of an impromptu journey through the last daily babbling blog i was keeping (that has slowed to an occasional entry due to lack of babbling time) and there may be some profound meaning to the entries selected from that impromptu journey but until and unless i find time to figure that out it will be mostly a random impromptu journey through the last babbling blog which was called RealTime, hence the title, random pauses (from RealTime)... so now that you know whatever it is this may convey, enjoy :)

random pauses II

part two of something, i think - in RealTime - Yes
once again, amazed - in RealTime
so i look at the blogger dashboard that - in RealTime
the excitement of finding followers - in RealTime
this will be brief - in RealTime
what it is all about, at least mostly - in RealTime
random bits - in RealTime
you say it's my brithday? - in RealTime
you can't always get what you want - in RealTime
time passes - in RealTime
of brilliance or babble - in RealTime
dire apathy - in RealTime
through the nights... - we have only just begun... - Yes
skeleton of an entry - in RealTime
threads of emotion - in RealTime
you are such a cool one, you are… - in RealTime
repeat business - in RealTime
the later it gets - in RealTime
give me head - in RealTime
cuz i will not quit - in RealTime
the entry after this entry is the comment - in RealTime - blog*spot
impromptu ode to craig ferguson - in RealTime
commenting again - in RealTime
SISS - in RealTime
probably recycled babble - in RealTime
repeated? - in RealTime
speaking of sleep... - in RealTime - Yes
who's in charge, anyway? - in RealTime - Yes
br - in RealTime - Yes
political suicide - in RealTime - Yes
there are magic hours - in RealTime - Yes
------ WELCOME TO MY NIGHTMARE... UMMMM, WORLD...
another letter - in RealTime - Yes
in the future - in RealTime
calling all followers! - in RealTime
hey, i could have linked porn - in RealTime

oh, so here, this is what i think about that - in RealTime
remember candora? - in RealTime
------ WELCOME TO MY NIGHTMARE... UMMMM, WORLD...
cha cha cha - we have only just begun... - Yes
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: what?
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: evolution
emo, or something like that - in RealTime
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: the second ten ...
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: since i've been gone
people of the world… i decided that there - in RealTime
------ WELCOME TO MY NIGHTMARE... UMMMM, WORLD...
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: and what about you?
this wasn't today - in RealTime - Yes
forgotten again (titles) - in RealTime
just pay the damn rent already - we have only just begun... - Yes
artificial intelligence - in RealTime
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: 800
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: "a"(m)e=hhr(squared)
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: once upon a time on ...
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: once upon a time on ...
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: holiday message ...
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: and later in the evening
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: hard core reality or ...
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: dang, forgot a title ...
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: napped and woke ...
continuing to continue - in RealTime - Yes
and the world still... - in RealTime
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: keeping in touch in time
could it be? - in RealTime - Yes
don't feel left out - in RealTime - Yes
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: parallelauniverse
in no apparent order - we have only just begun... - Yes
freakin bloggin fool - in RealTime - Yes
thereal and so on... - we have only just begun... - Yes
first, the comments... - in RealTime
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: softball report, part two
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: lips, hips, dips, and ...
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: wishes for pj
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: babble on, jim jones
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: so much tiredness ...
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: what title?
it never fails - in RealTime - Yes
------ WELCOME TO MY NIGHTMARE... UMMMM, WORLD...
free pass - in RealTime
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: finding emo
the illusion of words - in RealTime - Yes
sleepiness abounds - in RealTime
and what is real? - in RealTime
with or without you - in RealTime
alas, alack, and giggles - in RealTime
once last time, we hope - in RealTime
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: service
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: into the new space ...
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: but i didn't mean to ...
yeah, hundreds - in RealTime - Yes
skimming the surface - in RealTime - Yes
consistency - in RealTime - Yes
we have only just begun...
in RealTime™: survival can be fun
heat exhaustion - in RealTime - Yes
------ WELCOME TO MY NIGHTMARE... UMMMM, WORLD...
sunny sunday at the parks - in RealTime - Yes
and the ch-ch-ch-changes - in RealTime - Yes
starting over (again) - in RealTime - Yes
in retrograd (1111.1) - in RealTime - Yes

the long and broken road

lots of breaks and disconnects in october and november and december
and it may be time to reconcile this once again...
i never was much good at wanting to keep track of time...

the long and broken road that leads me back to your door
is a bit of begged borrowed and stolen words that rhyme...

it's an old song you must recognize
and remember
to understand
(icywtk)

December 2011

(private)
doritos for dinner

morning catch up
never enough time
timing is a lot
so what's new?



(private)
still love you

today was tomorrow yesterday, ya know?

someday, no really, someday

just for the record
arriving home
primal daily philosophy lesson 1
fun
(private)
lols and alases
sense
everdream
i coulda sworn i had a blog for bowling
reports of constipation have been
(private)
time running out on the weekend

(private)
alases and laughter
botts theory
(private)
blessed are the onces who remember to feel
give and give some more

too much fun, not enough time
enjoying myself















huh?




sleep must

number eleven number eleven number eleven

sites i saw #261

blessed are the ones who remember to feel

archives?

for no apparent reason

lols and alases


for no apparent reason

(private)
(private)
noticing
wow, really?
just in case
no really, what?
magic moments
getting stuff done
(private)
wonky ouchy
ouchy day

headache lingers
poor baby
(private)
lost along the way
cellophane
techincality
long and broken road
october 2011
november 2011
december 2011
the writer says: be
blessed
writing the record
once again, amazed



message from the future past:
cuz
pauses happen
on the
the long and broken road

(in time i shall repair the links above)

November 2011

kinda amazing
besides music
sleep dangit





wow, away






(private)






neglectful i have been
(private)
obviously, blah blah blah
(private)

(private)

yes, i know (with or without emphasis)


words written
linkages


(private)

softball weekend
gmorning
resting between games
more please
(private)
loving the fun
the morning after

(private)
fb comment
(private)
home again, no ring
fb comment
(private)
(private)
not enough time
sleep must
what happened





message from the future:
cuz
pauses happen
on the
the long and broken road

(in time i shall repair the links above)

October 2011

(private)
(private)
mostly newish
long fun weekend
sept 2011
poser
these blogging lives
where to put what
fact or fiction is relative to choice (private)
does it matter
body blows
vaguely remember
home a bit
flip a card, any card
blogpaths
red canyon
day off
commentarium
gotta sleep
beautiful morning
sites i saw 250
private blogging
tweet 289
tweet 290
tweet 291
catching up with myself
catching up with myself
sites i saw 251
and the changes
comments elsewhere
cleaning, laundry, facebook
back to the same
how to not sleep all night
tweet 295
how to not sleep
someone to love
tweet 297
(private)
comments elsewhere
(private)
comments elsewhere
the cat and the canary
alrighty then, sorta
cats
heading into a softball weekend
tweet 300
sometimes i wonder (softball)
home from work, off to play
fumbly bumbly win
silly, sleep already
to make it better
house call
let's get physical
sleep is good
pickles
ted turner broadcasting
home late, wake early
comments elsewhere
private blogs
sweet exhaustion
(private)
fatigue
sites is saw 252
sites i saw 253
sites i saw 254
comments elsewhere
workaholic
feeling alone
sites i saw 255
just the way it is
hydration
for no apparent reason (b sides) (new blog)
the ssaddest song you'll ever hear
this strange affair of life
sites i saw 256
strange threads
relaxing afternoon
good softball loss
sites i saw 257
comments lost and fb threads
sites i saw 258
sites i saw 259
sites i saw 260
just keep writing
comments elsewhere
oh come on now
skidaddling
home again (rinse, lather, rinse, and repeat)
softball on my mind
find myself awake
compartmentalizing
instance eh
work wakes me
not enough, but better than nothing
just relaxing

i will be back to update someday

(private)
(private)
wow, again
pauses
not just tv anymore
so i look at the blogger dashboard

message from the future:

cuz
pauses happen
on the
the long and broken road

(in time i shall repair the links above)

in case you want to know (icywtk)

feeling alone* (who remembers?)

(PS... if you came for the Meg and Dia mix, scroll down to the bottom of this entry...)

at this moment a poignant life change (upheaval level) is being processed and this is the public presentation of recorded moments and creative inspirations that are flowing as of this moment and the past week or so... i mean, of course there is (e)thereal, but thank goodness, there is still more...

awakish
almost home
singing songs
caught up, sorta
camping (alive in the moment)
sites i saw 198
sites i saw 199
sites i saw 200
sites i saw 201
and returning to a song of hope written when i was in the womb...

*alone

here i sit
so all alone
no one to talk to
no one to phone
i'll search to find
for there must be
a soul as lonely
looking for me

sad is heavy
vulnerability
want to be in love
looking for love
July 2011
sites i saw 197
sigh
fairy tale
wonder
blogs and other strangers
would you laugh?
the phone
stumblr at tumblr
days may blur for a while
remembering a bit

don't want to miss a thing
someday
why
love
lol lam laa

and in the end... thank goodness for the creativity (and the words and music and dreams and memories) that releases the emotions and with a little (or even lots of) creative license and imagination, turns the feelings into songs... and after years, it takes me back to the land of the mostly dead (though at least for the moment, not quite inspired to write there... perhaps later... or before, even... vulnerability is a delicate precarious balance, after all)...

but i love the creativity imagination can find in the emo :)

and finally for the moment, as i put this entry together, look what pops up on my phone... not just a person, but a place so well timed as to blow me away if i wanted it to... thank you universe (and dia)

... icywtk... sneeze... (seriously? yeah... just listen and feel :)

yeah, in case you wanted to know...