the long and broken road

lots of breaks and disconnects in october and november and december
and it may be time to reconcile this once again...
i never was much good at wanting to keep track of time...

the long and broken road that leads me back to your door
is a bit of begged borrowed and stolen words that rhyme...

it's an old song you must recognize
and remember
to understand
(icywtk)

December 2011

(private)
doritos for dinner

morning catch up
never enough time
timing is a lot
so what's new?



(private)
still love you

today was tomorrow yesterday, ya know?

someday, no really, someday

just for the record
arriving home
primal daily philosophy lesson 1
fun
(private)
lols and alases
sense
everdream
i coulda sworn i had a blog for bowling
reports of constipation have been
(private)
time running out on the weekend

(private)
alases and laughter
botts theory
(private)
blessed are the onces who remember to feel
give and give some more

too much fun, not enough time
enjoying myself















huh?




sleep must

number eleven number eleven number eleven

sites i saw #261

blessed are the ones who remember to feel

archives?

for no apparent reason

lols and alases


for no apparent reason

(private)
(private)
noticing
wow, really?
just in case
no really, what?
magic moments
getting stuff done
(private)
wonky ouchy
ouchy day

headache lingers
poor baby
(private)
lost along the way
cellophane
techincality
long and broken road
october 2011
november 2011
december 2011
the writer says: be
blessed
writing the record
once again, amazed



message from the future past:
cuz
pauses happen
on the
the long and broken road

(in time i shall repair the links above)

November 2011

kinda amazing
besides music
sleep dangit





wow, away






(private)






neglectful i have been
(private)
obviously, blah blah blah
(private)

(private)

yes, i know (with or without emphasis)


words written
linkages


(private)

softball weekend
gmorning
resting between games
more please
(private)
loving the fun
the morning after

(private)
fb comment
(private)
home again, no ring
fb comment
(private)
(private)
not enough time
sleep must
what happened





message from the future:
cuz
pauses happen
on the
the long and broken road

(in time i shall repair the links above)

October 2011

(private)
(private)
mostly newish
long fun weekend
sept 2011
poser
these blogging lives
where to put what
fact or fiction is relative to choice (private)
does it matter
body blows
vaguely remember
home a bit
flip a card, any card
blogpaths
red canyon
day off
commentarium
gotta sleep
beautiful morning
sites i saw 250
private blogging
tweet 289
tweet 290
tweet 291
catching up with myself
catching up with myself
sites i saw 251
and the changes
comments elsewhere
cleaning, laundry, facebook
back to the same
how to not sleep all night
tweet 295
how to not sleep
someone to love
tweet 297
(private)
comments elsewhere
(private)
comments elsewhere
the cat and the canary
alrighty then, sorta
cats
heading into a softball weekend
tweet 300
sometimes i wonder (softball)
home from work, off to play
fumbly bumbly win
silly, sleep already
to make it better
house call
let's get physical
sleep is good
pickles
ted turner broadcasting
home late, wake early
comments elsewhere
private blogs
sweet exhaustion
(private)
fatigue
sites is saw 252
sites i saw 253
sites i saw 254
comments elsewhere
workaholic
feeling alone
sites i saw 255
just the way it is
hydration
for no apparent reason (b sides) (new blog)
the ssaddest song you'll ever hear
this strange affair of life
sites i saw 256
strange threads
relaxing afternoon
good softball loss
sites i saw 257
comments lost and fb threads
sites i saw 258
sites i saw 259
sites i saw 260
just keep writing
comments elsewhere
oh come on now
skidaddling
home again (rinse, lather, rinse, and repeat)
softball on my mind
find myself awake
compartmentalizing
instance eh
work wakes me
not enough, but better than nothing
just relaxing

i will be back to update someday

(private)
(private)
wow, again
pauses
not just tv anymore
so i look at the blogger dashboard

message from the future:

cuz
pauses happen
on the
the long and broken road

(in time i shall repair the links above)

September 2011

omigoof
tweet 273
august 2011
sites i saw 223
sites i saw 224
make it wonderful
sites i saw 225
sites i saw 226
was here earlier
home late but no softball
google changes blogger
tweet 275
tweet 276
sites i saw 227
sites i saw 228
sites i saw 229
sites i saw 230
woke briefly
waking again
webkeeping
beyond ego
sweet nap, sweeter shower
tweet 277
too much candor
just getting home
sunday football
happy sad
on the internet
left out a major player
weaking smiling
sites i saw 231
sites i saw 232
sites i saw 233
sites i saw 234
sites i saw 235
sites i saw 236
3 day post
didn't last long
blink blink bbb
aching
crapoholic
pain in the neck
caring is a verb
see previous entries
private
return of loneliness
makes less sense
hello
early saturday
woah, wow, yeah
gotta trust somebody
private
what i miss most
almost famous
a nap would be sweet
fell asleep anyway
shoulda gone out
work distractions
backing away
sundays may be the loneliest days (private)
tweet 280
tweet 281
just keep swimming cha cha cha
continuing alone
balancing better
still alive fantasy
excitement, no?
ncis, weird
sites i saw 237
sites i saw 238
sites i saw 239
sites i saw 240
seven billion
continuing again
busy, busy, eeep
later in the evening
work continues
oh, seriously ouch
(private)
owie kazowie
like, whatever man
for the record, probably again and again
of course it's real
crazy wonderful, sorta
sites i saw 241
facebook comment 222483091142590
facebook photo comment number whatever
sites i saw 242
facebook comment 276946752335278
sites i saw 243
2022
no sleeping in this week
for someone
(private)
good and tired
'zagna in the 'ven
should be sleeping soon
feeling fatigue
yummy 'zagna
woke a lot
a bit later
what, again?
just not here enough
home early
so tired at night
mondays, tuesdays, wedsssssss
(private)
not dead yet
sites i saw 244
woke again
rain rain and more rain
ucf football
ok then, once again
no sleep?
(some personal blog comments out there somewhere, elsewhere, but still somewhere)
must be crazy, news?
decent, ok
waking for softball
home a while
random comment - snake snack attack
sites i saw 245
sites i saw 246
sites i saw 247
ok, so nobody cares
good morning sunday
home alone
it's ok
(private)
amused?
mixed messages
help
tweet 287
sci-fi channel fail
strangest thoughts
was i sad last time?
sleepiness vs ncis
(private)
morning doesn't really break
(private)
good night
random beginnings (private)
when someone cares to know
commentarium - purpose (private)
to share
sites i saw 248
sites i saw 249

August 2011

icywtk

morning in maine
sad is heavy
vulnerability
some other time
want to be in love
looking for love
July 2011
sites i saw 197
sigh
not easier, just drifting
fairy tale
wonder
blogs and other strangers
inside and out
would you laugh?
inconvenience stores
long short week ahead
the day after yesterday
halfway through
farewell party
fidgety fodgety foo
rushing keeps thinking down
sort of zombies
wonderful day
leaving on a jet plane
caught up, sorta
camping (alive in the moment)
sites i saw 198
sites i saw 199
sites i saw 200
sites i saw 201
looping loopy loop
losing touch
you could be me
bliss blitz
awakish
icywtk
for comments so far
candoor at wordpress
this is for us
and so it goes
all i ever needed
laundry
early to be late
wtfuck?
beyond fatigue
the phone
tweet 227
tweet 228
twwet 230ish
tweet 240
more tweets
so much silence
reaslizing missed opportunities
blurry healing
not here enought to matter
sighs and cheers
the question above
days may blur for a while
beware of groupon
i turn on the tv
changes change fast
someday you'll see this
noOne
of so slowly
starting over
zoshul-skilz
who will be there in the end
tweet 241
tweet 242
tweet 243
torn between two lovers
existence
sites i saw 202
sites i saw 203
sites i saw 204
tweet 244
woke dreaming
take care of your happiness
pathos
moving on
naps are good
special
sweet softball
titless
gauze
still sweet softball
feelings burn
world wont let me sleep
interesting not really drama
remembering a bit
tweet 245
tweet 246
tweet 247
tweet 248
don't want to miss a thing
someday
why oh why
busy day, delicious night
was almost asleep
sites i saw 205
sites i saw 206
heck if i know
love's worth
night madness
this kind of fool
still awake
wake up dangit
such a good moment for sleep
too much energy to sleep
there was a time
tweet 2??
the most important thing
tweet 2??
(private)
momentary links
boom goes the sky
ok then
skipping showers
don't look now, around that is
nap and wake
tweet 2??
not always polite
middle of the night
quick night
await your arrival
sites i saw 207
sites i saw 208
and when nobody arrived, then what?
i will be there
so much more
cyberspace connections
cuz excitement continues
practical care
you want me, wake me
all the fun of money
and she said (bftp - funda)
freedom and equality
relaxing awake
lonely life
ciz someday, someone will want to know
walking slowly, waking that is
another long day
comment on eureka

could be fun
run twoo
and another long day
awake again
what matters
sites i saw 209
sites i saw 210
sites i saw 212
who invented the 12 ounce can anyway?
slippery sleep
with phone
woke again
another dog night
losing interest
sites i saw 213
sites i saw 214
sites i saw 215
really?
water dripping from the nose
instance caramel
back and forth
sites i saw 216
white castel krystals
sleep, he asks, what sleep?
us politics

let myself sleep
5k times
sudden 5k
live feed from nyc
tweet 2??
tweet 2??
tweet 2??
tweet 2??
tweet 2??
tweet 2??
tweet 2??
sites i saw 219
sites i saw 209
sites i saw 218
sites i saw 217
hello it's me
silence can be so loud
sites i saw 220
still, yeah, awake too
sites i saw 221
lazy weekend
tweet 270
lonely after softball
must be again, at least
google plus minus me
tweet 272
too serious for this world
missing out
sooooo tired
sites i saw 222
totally not
meatballs
woah, wow, what?
miss me much?
ka-boom
this will be here

in case you want to know (icywtk)

feeling alone* (who remembers?)

(PS... if you came for the Meg and Dia mix, scroll down to the bottom of this entry...)

at this moment a poignant life change (upheaval level) is being processed and this is the public presentation of recorded moments and creative inspirations that are flowing as of this moment and the past week or so... i mean, of course there is (e)thereal, but thank goodness, there is still more...

awakish
almost home
singing songs
caught up, sorta
camping (alive in the moment)
sites i saw 198
sites i saw 199
sites i saw 200
sites i saw 201
and returning to a song of hope written when i was in the womb...

*alone

here i sit
so all alone
no one to talk to
no one to phone
i'll search to find
for there must be
a soul as lonely
looking for me

sad is heavy
vulnerability
want to be in love
looking for love
July 2011
sites i saw 197
sigh
fairy tale
wonder
blogs and other strangers
would you laugh?
the phone
stumblr at tumblr
days may blur for a while
remembering a bit

don't want to miss a thing
someday
why
love
lol lam laa

and in the end... thank goodness for the creativity (and the words and music and dreams and memories) that releases the emotions and with a little (or even lots of) creative license and imagination, turns the feelings into songs... and after years, it takes me back to the land of the mostly dead (though at least for the moment, not quite inspired to write there... perhaps later... or before, even... vulnerability is a delicate precarious balance, after all)...

but i love the creativity imagination can find in the emo :)

and finally for the moment, as i put this entry together, look what pops up on my phone... not just a person, but a place so well timed as to blow me away if i wanted it to... thank you universe (and dia)

... icywtk... sneeze... (seriously? yeah... just listen and feel :)

yeah, in case you wanted to know...

July 2011

June 2011
sleep wake what?
tweet 197
tweet 198
tweet 199
tweet 200
tweet 201
tweet 202
tweet 203
tweet 204
tweet 205
tweet 207
lost entries
mostly clueless
strange tumbl
blogger?
so along about yesterday
luxury apartments
sure enough
blogger?
sites i saw 177
sites i saw 178
sites i saw 179
blogger?
poverty is rich
blogger?
classless whores
media whores
nearing the end?
sites i saw 180
and then, c, is
pardon the pathos
sites i saw 183
need more than one night
twitter politics
pain in the neck
what the heck, neck?
easy to be smile
who is that chameleon in the mirror?
rediscovering myspace
dia interview
service unavailable
sites i saw 184
is this a love song?
all or nothing
fears
maybe better
sites i saw 181
sites i saw 182
past fatigue
something sick like work
just getting home
pulchritude
almost twice
once
breadcrumbs
sites i saw 187
sites i saw 186
sites i saw 185
you know the sound
cuz we are gedding dare
as if i had the time
sites i saw 188
weirdly awake
sites i saw 189
suicidal patterns
dia and harry
yummy tired
sites i saw 190
facebook liking
too tired to pay attention
close to wasted
rather crappy, actually
thanks, universe
you know how i roll
push
sites i saw 191
sites i saw 192
sites i saw 193
busy head
don't you be fooled
what was, what wasn't, what?
what was this again?
beyond ozone
closer to bliss
when will they ever learn
seriously, mr franken, thank you
blogger?
sites i saw 196
sites i saw 194
sites i saw 195
almost home
singing songs
blitz sleep
and then, now
almost missed it
most ethereal
daze of music
road trip
morning again

once

once there was a way...

to get back home... word.

once upon a time
i made a promise to myself
i gave a promise to myself
i said that love will never end
and i will always be a friend
and i will always stay in touch
and i still want to this much

beyond a dream
and just once
to share the understanding
to share everything

once

so i continue writing every day
no matter what the world may say
no matter how or why you're here
or even if no one is there
the words will be
the thoughts will be
eternally

beyond the printed page


here, here, and here...

here, there, and everywhere... word.

June 2011

would have been grand
sites i saw 154
May 2011
no time (so often)
don't wanna sleep
sleeping deep
was there ever a doubt?
such a dork, aye?
splendiforous
maybe i'm amazed at the way i giggle all the time
could you be any less cohesive?
where wandered i part seven huundred
ephemeral
sites i saw 155
still at it
dreams, american and others
posers
the old me
stuffed
bumping it up
hard body
long weeks of work
sleep until you wake up
activity partners
physical rest, facebook contacts
and another saturday ends
sites i saw 156
sites i saw 157
the calamity of humanity's insanity
you are missing
deleting mail an such
chrome
sites i saw 158
time is so short
zombie head
sites i saw 159
did i mention fool?
another long monday
softball
chocolate shakes make life worth it
sites i saw 160
sleepy
sometimes things do not work out as
at least there was tv
over tired
so tired last night
ford fiesta and other failures
sleep in peace
i probably just wasted my time
somebody put me to bed
working sixteens
something about breaking a few eggs
finally the week is over
jazzy dog dreams
nap body cranky
walking groggy again
sheesh whata job
161
cuz it's easier than bathing
162
163
changes are seldom subtle
fun, but still
way back when
so much tired
madness ensues
pizza and tv
out of place euphoria
mostly fatigue
(private)
missing most of it
returning futility
letting it go again
overworked, underpaid, still overfed
they call it tinnitus
pushing bod
with or without you
not even logical
still fun
back door (update)
back door addresses (update)
approaching 2000
should it be a celebration? (2000th)
another morning
coolnss
164
165
166
167
168
chemistry
lousy chemists
chemistry dot crap
chemistry, yo
sleepy head loaded
good sense, good life
choice
169
framptons
twitter - love
sweet is true
change the world
ridiculous days
afraid
little hard balls of shit
peek you
just when you thought it was down
another long day
170
171
so often almost asleep
another fall behind day
172
shameless self-promotion
never liked leno
no rest for the kind hearted
173
chores and web
letter to mankind
pool
wide awake, sorta
dog days
blurry weekend
the excitement of finding followers
so much to do
four stars ?
fish market
still not sleeping, still hoping
really?
was here, really
here to follow
the voice
blogs and other strangers
how can you be so sleepless
screwed by microsoft again
174
175
176
straight to bed
sleep deprived