October 2012

yeah, yum, ok
first impressions
for the moment
tat twat?
transference
spy where?
celebrating rocks
almost unreal
alien money
colors of the sun
colors of the earth
occasional words
mixed message
good book
story books
why so serious?
colors of the air
are you for real?
what impressions?
where did i go?
(private)
wait, was this monday?
what i meant was
blurry evening
evening sleep after dinner
sleep what?
learning is seldom routine
not the best lunch
problem solved
almost repeat
not losing interest, am i?
and what do i do?
refocusing slightly
yeah really
(private)
been sleeping
cuz life continues
there's a grill
sleepy afternoons
why do i care?
another day etc
autonomy is sweet
time passes fast
food satisfies
nappy wakey
and here we are


who's counting?
where's the shower?
not waking
was it just a dream?
oh, and we have such fun
stats and sats(private)
freakin rain
sidebar says
cuddling on the couch
movie emotions
bedtime
waking without alarms
sats and stats
caught up again
need to know
russian girlfriend
thunder and lightning
challenging
not much face time
tv sports, food, and laundry
solitary party
waking happiness
kiss me
whole world in your hands
kit is what i do(private)
something was fun
sleep is right
morning wakes happiness
wings and friends
yummy but bloated
early to bed
early to rise
working in catch-up mode
one third done
skipped lunch for leftovers
but i did catch up

when i walk away
and then time passed
so where was i again
morning blurr
still catching up
afternoon blear
home tired
sleeping sweetly
waking awake
not as much catch up
straight home tonight
just me and happiness
actually eh, aye
and it's an exciting game
and the night drags on
ridiculousness sleeplessness
morning too quickly
hits and curves
two for two
straight home again
and so it goes how many times?
so where was i again, again?
(private)
(private)
sleep write rush
just waking
more fun to win
not exactly cautionary diet
the toca bell diet
don't wanna be angry
still are
you miss out
blindness is relative
all you never knew
you were never here
slightly stalled
changing times
oh what fun it is to write
but i don't want to sleep
who are you?
about two hours sleep
practice, maybe
finally sort of
yummy, nappy, wordy, and college football
for the record, posterity and all
yeah baby, really, lol
sigh for the old dog
sleep or code red
blogtrickery
sweet nap cut short
sports saturday
excciting sports, loud dog
yankees game
sports, dog, life
good weeks
six hours sleep if i start now
wake up for softball
some days we are not bad
oh yes i did
still good in spite of stupidity
clothes shopping and treat
home is good


slow to wake
surprise, ok
blurry coolness
stopped for food
ok not sleeping
did i meantion i wasn't sleeping?

dragging out of bed
gourmet coffee
welcome to eoc
data afternoon
stopped on green
dinner and something
another pushed morning
surprises happen
long day journey into flaws
stopped at firehouse
are we there yet?
i was still here
every morning this week
more than my share
busy afternoon
and home alone
(private)
nights of blurr



nap a bit

late late night
early morning day off
getting stuff done
memory
can;t please everyone
figures
sigh and all
alone in a crowd
late dinner
and long night into morning
morning chores
sort of waking
catching up and so on
the weirdest thing
nap a bit
diphenhydramine, even
for the caring among you
happy birthday pj

not working well
waking irritated
rough day
mixed up day
prophetic perhaps
home for football
an hour or more
(private)
and then there's windows 8
did i leave out dinner?
i was sort of asleep
slept
routine morning
asking a lot
fast asleep
and morning
solitary determination
orientation
shopping for lunch
chart audits
refocused
and there we are
google provides fake stats
of sure
silly mad
early day
expanding my role
getting it done
the busy day runs by
dinner and happiness
waking from a nap
how we render
surrender
what we have here is an insatiable brain
scattered remnants
late morning
morning productivity
yup, just the way it is, so far
surprise is no surprise
decided to spend money
yummy nappy sticky
a couple of hours
i blinked and a week passed
catching up on introductions
comment somewhere
loving life
mind control
weather i'm right
sinceriously
fixing a hole
not just song references
whatchu say, elvis?
are you getting excited yet?
dog food compromise
silly dog
egocentric style
does volume matter?
skipping stories
attention of course
(private)
but it is saturday morning, dammit
weather idiots
shins
beds are good
went back to bed
number stuff
a bit off white today
dorky day
somewhere somewhere
later that night
not just another saturday night
ya miss me?
wake up, sleepy head
typical game, good weather
happiness awaits
baseball and football
evening tv games
fun and games
change of plans
i miss you
(private)

scary, huh?
early enough?
reading the scribbles
by mid-afternoon
home by five
could have been more
visit, dinner, football
pushing the body again
repeat yesterday
and as usual
blurry evenings
woke thinking
new resumes, new hopes
wide awake at you know
snooze buttons
not thinking ahead
ok then, everywhere you go
routine work
mundane details
surely i am not surely
ch-ch-ch-ch-co-late-is-change

September 2012

cuz what happens is
the weirdness is
responded, in case you missed it (private)
sites i saw #452
sites i saw #453
went to bed instead of posting this
went out before posting this
enjoyed the day before i posted this
wrote the next entry before i posted this
all the lonely people, where do they all come from?

another long fun day
fell asleep on the couch
babies wake early
hanging with a three year old
plans change even when you dont plan
on our way home, sort of
and the song goes something like
and finally popped
sites i saw #454
repeat, but not the same (private)
morning come lately
the continuing saga of changing plans
for those who love to drive
busy weekend
better and better
happy surprise
good night's sleep
don't hold your breath
some time earlier
really, what?
on time so far?
sites i saw #
sites i saw #
sites i saw #
17
that old kit magic (private)
blink and everything changes
belly bell
did i mention
references
sorting through the box
lazy hungry
fatigue and babble
over-blank
still awake
woke up
the new job place
mandatory tests
records check
new in town
new chinsese buffet
batting cages
thrifth shops
to the fields
the blackout and bags
twtter time
the past happened
now-ish
hello my friends
gotta run
another yummy surprise
inexpensive local buffet

running joke
not doing it and page views
go to sleep
morning rush
mid-day update
while i was not here
fore-telling, past telling
not promoting
and finally
consumer communer orlando
mini-letter update (private)

vacations seldm want to end
sometimes it's just too exciting for words
maybe not at this time
upon re-evaluation
about stats
more about the stats
stats
now that we're all fascinated
sites i saw #
sites i saw #
sites i saw #
such a waste
yeah, here again
really cool
woke up lonely
bouncing slowly
on my way
that was fun
meanwhile,
so whats really going on?
today's stats
was out but still
why not sleep?
sites i saw #
sites i saw #

glue stuff
money can't buy happiness
sites i saw #
getting better
and sleep woulf be good now
what fun
blurry
drumroll
another 5k experience
good practice
gonna nap now
yay for naps
not too pathetic
pushing rehab

sleeping ok
whether dependent
priorities are relative
frustrations and retrospection
walls are frustrating
new life (future entry)
what's right? candoric september 2012 you are appreciated (private) unexpected calls back to work tone deaf stats stuff fish is good not napping much lousy football, good fantasy early train home already naps are sweet tv drama expanding me sharing ideas continuing facebook me facebook indy views facebook change america facebook wide awake at 4am hate it nfl fail google fail vista fail test say it again part 1 say it again part 2 say it again part 3 juxta posing forgetting time definitely facebook and tv poor romantic sleep early time for lunch yeah, eh phew and eh for those paying attention almost headache, timeache looking back on the week undefining comment-letters like, whatever porerhetoric for what it's worth american politics getting ridiculous wasted weather adjustments food nod cleaned up for guests 25k sometimes (pride) of course not sick sucks the blurry life who'd a thought it puts on the lotion was thought here ridiculousness does not end at the frazzleberry no really, that was not (e)thereal, was it? seriously, where are we? it is whatever you make of it now you might wonder why all a-bubble with mirth see what i mean? freedom requires truth (private) not the best idea dramatic drop in visits do entries : visits? a morning thing the relativity, sort of because i want to vital is sleep reluctantly awake freakin friday push sometimes that's all you get onward to death and such waiting for softball rain again we are not alone and on the side view another side the nfl is over new eye candy so did i mention training (private) narfenstein right, and the day began in the passenger seat moving fast food sucks rain sheets suspense, aye? how now? sleepy hungry timing the yums lazy moon and kit kat comment 85 wow, where, what? mysteries remain winning is fun too and the evening passed

really cool

what would be really cool would be a table of contents that automatically links everything i write and/or upload automatically with a pop up or even in the background and the ultimate publishing format would be a book turning pages with everything i write simply recorded and uploaded page after page... if you happen to know of such software, templates, simplicity, and genius, please let me know... until then, this is the table of contents, as if you wondered...

August 2012

sites i saw #
lotsa sleep
no work today
spent tonight
comment on guy adams

groggy, not good
vague memory
shopping again
actually not sleep
napped
snacked
waking on my own
time flies when napping

tumblr
love this idea

wtf now
i did something
dinner out again
say anything

really ought to sleep
not enough sleep
need a nap
awake again, sort of
and here we are again
head above water
head above water part two
softball hurts
not very talkative
and so
(private - reread)
festival net candor com
festival net profile

comments

not

recorded

off track
browsing the internet
slept through the night, mostly
whatever happened, happened
got this anonymous phone call
realigion
conspiracy theories(private)
playlist
some sort of yay
indie gogo

thought it was later
no tv, but should eat
what matters
ok, so? (private)
late into night
i'm so vain

connections and such
not enough time
babbling a bit
coasting on laurels
playlist summer 2012
by laurels, i mean humus
night times
sleep is reasonable good
awake and hungry

olympics 2012
oh yummy yeah
back to yummy
4am yummies
back so soon?
dude
whatchu say?

more blur
atill awake
yes still percolating
olympickles
and then he woke me
delicious atricious
moldy melon
dreams, fantasies, and brain food
the dual edge of fatigue
canarsie
the pier
book tree

dog food theory
do doo doo doo
olympics 2012
ignorance amazes me

sites i saw #422
sites i saw #423
sites i saw #424
sites i saw #425
sites i saw #426
sites i saw #427
sites i saw #428
sites i saw #429
sites i saw #430
sites i saw #431
sites i saw #432
sites i saw #433
sites i saw #434
slow ride (private)
yum
cooking late
fell asleep in the chair again
impromptu drive
late night snacks

staring dog

whatever
the spaces between
sorting
format question
extended rest
alrighty then
yeah, well, whatever
slight delay
it's because
people are cruel
sometimes a mystery
do i know too much
brighthouse again
brighthouse sucks chapter whatever
wandered away
time blurs by again
spacey day

a bit of history

jalf asleep
some days are more challenging than others
push awake
waking mostly
who makes time
just kit and stuff (private)
what is missing
nobody
dog stares

august 2012
nodded into bed
femour
so i wandered about

life is good when we get along
life is funner with friends

skipped weekend (private)
away, sort of
brighthouse sucks, again
so happy birthday
so much waiting
four hours sleep
education in the usa
nocturnal

sites i saw #435
sites i saw #436
sites i saw #437
sites i saw #438
sites i saw #439
sites i saw #440
sites i saw #441
sites i saw #442

sites i saw #443

debate.org

and another morning
chicken fat
prophesy
sites i saw #444
sites i saw #3??

to monetize or not to monetize
just hi (private)
harry chapin radio
good night again

party week (private)
what time
so maybe just a little fill-in
if i was connected
heading out
oh, the cleverness
here's another (private)

ok then, one more time
sigh and all (private)
good weekend
new morning attitude
and unexpected again
late morning
yeah, so
news and weather
too much to catch up on (private)
puppy day
woke yucky
feeling bad
not much better
napped deep
brighthouse service, not
not brighthouse
several unrecorded comments
the farting dog returns
whadya whadya whadya
cable and internet search
this morning
went to bed
morning is here
fuzzy day
sleepy day
ok, i'm tired of being tired
so i slept
what i was doing
brain fried
more competition
sites i saw #445
sites i saw #446
sites i saw #447
sites i saw #448
sites i saw #449
sites i saw #450
sites i saw #451

i'm so vain

i probably think this blog is about me, oh oh... lol, you know... ah, yes, as i said a while back, beyond the table of contents record, the monthly list of much of stuff i write and post (and don't post) on the web that this blog is, this blog is built on the hope that somebody somewhere will some day want to know everything about me...

it still makes for a reasonably decide table of contents too though, aye? :)

July 2012

june 2012
cha cha cha challenge
no really, sleep
increase sleep
clearing space
what's all this about sleep?
where it all began
now see here
nasa tv
taking time for home
ghosts calling
not the best cable service
ok, no sleep
cable services
stay on your toes(private)
bells are ringing
hair is gone
and yummy lunch
good day, how are you?
what can i say, again
still no sleep
manickakakaka
pushing limits further
rapid fire
giving in
or thereabouts
another night wakes me
finally some sleep
next stop, albuquerque
something's coming
something's coming

yeah, so what
broken up
because i obviously have head junk
ridiculous again
and then there was none
alarms and animals
just a little desperation never hurt
it's raining stones
important notice(private)
oh no, not bones
wake again


pushing the physical
ok, actually, sotra
did i mention plug
almost reality
woulda shoulda
filled this in too
ok, i confess
lovely lazy day
gonna rest today
scratching it out
losing interest
lonely, i am
sunday loneliness
who cares, what?
xbox confessions
doing list
where been
work, eat, vege
life or sleep, life
another month
cycles cycle
bed head
wish i was dreaming
sometimes i just want to get away
busy business as usual
when i am a hundred
meanwhile in life offline
filling in the gaps
foot pain
missed a day
throb thrub foot foo

and foot
is it shiny
sleep, yeah
writing more again
wah wah wah
glub glub
hanging on day by day
some sort of philosophy and today
spent the night reading
i forget when i fell asleep
must have slept
laundry visits
in my midnight confessions
laundry continues
don't be sad or sorry
waking to stare
protect the children from the children
took a push

that's it then
good nap, but
walking better
why i am alone
cleaning house
half a nap
sleepy tired
sleep 4
feeling fatigue
it can be so easy
so much to talk about
later in the day
willin'
what, not again
going to bed
i was in bed, really
buried in search
wow, that was good
ready for sleep again
day shift
did ya miss me?
wtf
farty dog and cooking
instead of sleep
with a blurred smile
comments now working(private)
this rediculousness
recording this moment
signing is sometimes just crying outloud
perhaps
somehow sleep was put off
woah
so what i was saying

it took a bit of time
and then we had food
tv, nap, tv, sleep
something changed
so while i have time(private)
breakfast and work at home
progressing
and when no message came
don't let the dishes sit unrinsed
sites i saw #390
sites i saw #391
sites i saw #392
sites i saw #393
sites i saw #394
sites i saw #395
whole lotta nuttin(private)
enough sleep
and so i didn't
sites i saw #396
sites i saw #397
sites i saw #398
sites i saw #399
sites i saw #400
sites i saw #401
sites i saw #402
sites i saw #403
sites i saw #404
almost sleep time
was sleeping good
oops he did it again
research and tv
curled up on the couch
five minutes for you(private)
time for sleep
slept about ten hours
is it really e-the-real?(private)

really?
out of the blue
a bit of deeper ooze
time may tell
head neck ear foot
two new blogs
shower shave rest
after rest
neck ear head foot
latest hello
what to do aye?
daily, this week at least(private)
made it through the week
poor jackson
change of plans
and i am still here
nite
sunshiney day
home for the night
other stuff
tweet logic
sites i saw #405
sites i saw #406
sites i saw #407
sites i saw #408
sites i saw #409
comments again(private)
morning rises

buy this, a lot
let there be light
life this
we can if we want to
food, fun, and rain
ready for sleep and then
another monday morning
double mc not (aamco)
shared weekend
facebook is sad

good evening
comments not working here either(private)

a bit wonky
monday night sci-fi
well this is whatever it was
checking off the list
good day, good night
up, down, and up again
apple vs microsoft: planned obsolescence
ok, so i hear you(private)
and so then
not much more
rush limbaugh wants to watch amateur porn
day gone
some days are stragely not there
daily elsewhere(private)
good morning, aye?
random conversation
all for love
comment
blogging as a job
imperfect pleasures
doing my job
paying attention helps
did i mention paying attention helps?
what's in the stats?

another friday morning
semi-awake, not semi-truck
distractions
yeah, so anyway
if i had a million dollars
communication(private)
olympics, old boy
half and half
loneliness

what happened to sleeing in
what to do now?
gonna pizza tonight
whatsa whatsa
who are we?
libbo likes to watch
what's going on?
so much more
the party of living: so much more
the afterblog: the party of living: so much more
almost jogging
better every day
July 2012
the long and winding road
keep on rolling
1-corinthians 13:11
matters of interpretation
olympics and stuff
working my way back to me, yeah
old neighborhood
once i had a library
another addiction
not special effects
2nd star to the right
art of self love
tree dancer
quiet evening at home
imagery
surprise day
current plans
sites i saw #410
sites i saw #411
sites i saw #412
sites i saw #413
sites i saw #414
sites i saw #415
sites i saw #416
sites i saw #417
sites i saw #418
sites i saw #419
coasting today
evening fun
love my roommate
no more caffeine
morning at noon
sites i saw #420
was visiting
laxy afternoon
yummy dinner, smiley night

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the spaces between

as we scroll down the screen there are spaces between the links that are there when i feel something is missing, when i feel i've done more writing outside of my blogs that is not copied and pasted in my blogs or recorded for posterity or memory anywhere... stuff i might write offline, on paper... or stuff i might write on websites as comments or articles that i simply do not copy for my files or blogs (usually because i am wandering and focused on the thoughts inspired wherever i am and sometimes copying and pasting interrupts those thought streams and so... some stuff is left out)... so when i feel stuff is left out of this record of writing, this table of contents, i skip a line and that blank line lets us know there was more than meets the eye here in this list of links to the writings i've left on the web... and i mention it not not only as an explanatory note, but also, for better or worse, because this reminds me of one of the deepest truths forming the core of my personal philosophy and perspective in this life...

if you do not understand my silence
you will not understand my words